For what i did

For what i did, for what i said.
Im sorry about everything that happened that night. I should not of opened my mouth and said that. Im sorry if it made you bring up memories of what happened. I feel stupid, i actually think less of myself for what i said. I know you keep saying your over it and your gunna look back on it and laugh, but for now i cant. I feel so bad, i will never do it again. Im trying to fix my mistakes, im gunna try hard. I love you my best friend always will.

Im also sorry to dylzie and my brother, yous were just seeing if i was okay, i should not of reacted like that, im stupid i know.

&& for the others who helped me out, yous are amazing


basically it has been a sorry blog.

I still feel stupid.

right now.

i feel that confused that i don't know how to describe it.

urgh it's getting down to the business point of the term, assignment after assignment needs to be done, im just slacking of and consuming alcohol, but heyy trying to enjoy life....


oh im trying to be healthy. :)

today.

is the first day that i have giggled at something, its been about a week.
anywho just listening to the almighty hilltop hoods and i heard the lyrics ''i want to exit like how i entered, between some legs,'' i then pictured it from a boys point of view and giggled like crazy, yepp how low has my life become, but ay gotta enjoy it.
fifa 10 fifa 10 fifa 10, i liiikkeeeeee you.




the more i help, the more i become afraid. im still here for you, no matter what. re reading it constantly.

problem

i have realised that the problem that annoys me the most about myself is that I over care. I care that much that i get really self involved into everything untill i feel that the person is okay, i wont listen to them if they say ''i'm okay'' when they obviously arnt. that is what also annoys me, when someone is going through a great struggle and they put on a brave face, i see right through it. i dunno maybe in a way it is good that i care.

fuck,

shit is getting rough

i need a somebody, i need happiness.

fuck i wish i was like a cane train driver or something, so i can just get away and not have to think at all.
fuck sake.

i hope you read this

im worried for you, i want you to be safe. im not yet sure of your problems but they are making you seem real down. im here for you and always will be. i think of you as a brother and i really do hope things turn out okay. ill know you will rise again.

no i'm being serious

fuck you for not talking to me and making me feel like shit, CHEERS!



well school is shit. shit as shit can be.
what like 7 weeks left for the year, thank god for that. im over it all.