exam time

once again you daunt over me and i just want it over and done with.
for reasons that camp is straight after :), keen to run a muck :)

so much study to do and my brain is hardly being able to cope.
im concentrating so much more on the assignments that i still have to do which are due on the monday before camp.
wooo camp, makes me happy at the thought of it with you know who. settle your cheeky minds.

anyway my study break was to post a blog. whoever reads this, your lucky that your not studying, well thats if your not.

cya

Things aren't good

my stress levels are really pushing me, i'm close to exploding and i can already see myself distancing the real me from the people who i need around me. I hardly talk to my close friends these days, i basically just do school work, soccer and work. I'm really over it and i need to relax. But no, pushing and pushing it what teachers do, they want us to achieve, but the only thing i see myself achieving is ending up to fade away. I'm over school, 3 terms to go preety much.

noah

"I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you."

- the notebook
seen it around 12 times this year already, makes me wish that someone would like me.

My lateness

Is lateness evan a word?

Anywho haven't blogged in a while, been busybusy with school, work, soccer, family, friends. You know a life without the internet, wow who would of thought there was such a thing.

With me becomming this busy i've been lacking something, sleep! I'm not allowing myself enough time to regain my strength, and yes i've been putting in the hard yards at soccer training, i really hope i make it :)

Since my last blog, my brother bear turned 18, still immature but thats just him, happy birthday.

School is like a massive blurr, already week 7, already handed in 2 assignments, already got my first grade of a B+, so im taking that as a good start to the year, hellooo good OP - i wish. All my subjects take up so much time, for instance spent 4 hours on my introduction for chemistry, 4 pages long already, and havent evan bothered with the discussion. Now i just gotta set my mind on biology for today, just ate some cheese toasties so now my mind is ready!

Alice in Wonderland - a good movie, dont get why it is in 3D and also lacked to how my imagination played it out to me, maybe i should be a movie director, neeeeh stuff that. just johnny depp would be awesome to chill with.

Anywho longest blog, ive got some research to do.
i've also minimised my going out/alcohol consumption, which i'm glad that i've done.

byebye for now, i'm lonely as.
xo