Camp Memories

All the activities - laser tag (why did i get the big as gun?), CANOES (flipping them, water polo, moving positions with 3 people!!), some future crap (in 8 years time ill have 3 million bucks, have a black baby, fail at uni and then be the prime minister HOLLAA), Absailing - (cute wedgie & campy going face forward hoh shit), bike riding (yep just falling off numorous times, then getting all muddy and running into trees), adventure walk (SPLITTING OPEN MY FOREHEAD HAHAHHAAHHAHAHA, getting abit of concussion, WE STILL GOT THE BEST TIME 1 hour and 2 minutes, GO GINDAJA!) && shirt screen printing/painting - haha bit of cute fun.

CAMP IDOL - just got to say i love you jesse cook or should i say JESSE GAGA?? fucking funny as! rachel & jedess - such beautiful voices, & DAVY you are gunna go far mate :) . haha rocking it out in the back with claire and alex, yeah lets go get a drink ill meet you at the bottle - o. claire ''haha were in tinaroo''. and then break out in a laugh for agesss!

GARBAGE BAG BALL - yeahyeahyeahyeah good times, cute outfits everyone. bit of a rave with the sen10rs of 2010 at cairns high, DJ JONESYYYY yeah mannn!

the camp fires, bit cute. and those ninjas, hahahah stacking hahahaha.

anyways i loved camp, so many good times. i love my friends they mean alot to me. still have another 3 terms left of school. Just saying it now that im really going to miss it, miss the people everyday. Cause i know now that im moving to the gold coast. But im going to enjoy everything that i have for now.

SEN10R CAMP

From the 30/03/10 - 1/04/10, were the three best days that i've ever lived till now. The people that were there really made good memories for me. These memories i'll never forget. I really wanna go back to those days or at least make more of them :). I've gained closer bonds to people that I hardly spoke to prior and i really do love the sen10rs of cairns state high 2010. The best bunch of people around i must admit.

So just a big shout out to Mr Camp, you bloody legend! Making year 12 amazing he did, he really did.

GINDAJA - shout out to you guys, a lovely bunch of people. Hell yes we were voted the best group by the teachers, AND HECK YES WE WERE!
i say GIN you say DAJA, GINDAJAGINDAJA!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3

So since camp, life has been so bloody amazing.
Scaventure Hunt, the gatherings, ME DRIVING A CAR WOOOO!, anyways just gotta enjoy the days as they come, people make mistakes, but guess what i'm being the better person and i'm just moving on. your loss if you wanna act all sour.

loving life, i really am.

p.s I miss my sister &&&& GROOVIN IN LESS THAN A MONTH &&&& NEW ZEALAND in 2 MONTHS TIME. oh the memories that i cant wait for :)

exam time

once again you daunt over me and i just want it over and done with.
for reasons that camp is straight after :), keen to run a muck :)

so much study to do and my brain is hardly being able to cope.
im concentrating so much more on the assignments that i still have to do which are due on the monday before camp.
wooo camp, makes me happy at the thought of it with you know who. settle your cheeky minds.

anyway my study break was to post a blog. whoever reads this, your lucky that your not studying, well thats if your not.

cya

Things aren't good

my stress levels are really pushing me, i'm close to exploding and i can already see myself distancing the real me from the people who i need around me. I hardly talk to my close friends these days, i basically just do school work, soccer and work. I'm really over it and i need to relax. But no, pushing and pushing it what teachers do, they want us to achieve, but the only thing i see myself achieving is ending up to fade away. I'm over school, 3 terms to go preety much.

noah

"I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you."

- the notebook
seen it around 12 times this year already, makes me wish that someone would like me.

My lateness

Is lateness evan a word?

Anywho haven't blogged in a while, been busybusy with school, work, soccer, family, friends. You know a life without the internet, wow who would of thought there was such a thing.

With me becomming this busy i've been lacking something, sleep! I'm not allowing myself enough time to regain my strength, and yes i've been putting in the hard yards at soccer training, i really hope i make it :)

Since my last blog, my brother bear turned 18, still immature but thats just him, happy birthday.

School is like a massive blurr, already week 7, already handed in 2 assignments, already got my first grade of a B+, so im taking that as a good start to the year, hellooo good OP - i wish. All my subjects take up so much time, for instance spent 4 hours on my introduction for chemistry, 4 pages long already, and havent evan bothered with the discussion. Now i just gotta set my mind on biology for today, just ate some cheese toasties so now my mind is ready!

Alice in Wonderland - a good movie, dont get why it is in 3D and also lacked to how my imagination played it out to me, maybe i should be a movie director, neeeeh stuff that. just johnny depp would be awesome to chill with.

Anywho longest blog, ive got some research to do.
i've also minimised my going out/alcohol consumption, which i'm glad that i've done.

byebye for now, i'm lonely as.
xo

Joy

Tomorrow, the day a massive rush of happiness will be on my side. My sister & niece are comming back home for a bit of a needed holiday. I'm so excited. I can't wait to spend every minute i can with them, to see how much jaida has grown. It's been over a year and i've missed them like crazy. Finally they are comming back!

Nathans 18th party, was abit of a blurr. From the shit i got told and all the injuries i had in the morning, it must of been a good night :)
thankyou everyone for comming, sorry about nate cracking the shits.

schools going good for now, handed in my first assignment for year 12, just got about 7 more to hand in before CAMP! YAY YAY YAY, i lovvvvvvvvve camping

Vday

A day to where people feel like they are on the top of the world, they have their 'so called' love of their life by their side. Well lets see what i have, noone to call 'mine' but i do have an amazing bunch of mates. The boys and girls make me happy, so thats enough love, right?

It does get annoying when people over exaggerate this day. It may be an american thing, but don't us aussie take it aboard like its our own. I read a report today in the Sunday Mail and it stated we will spend millions of dollars, on flowers, balloons, romantic dinners and pointless ripp of crap prety much sums everything else. I just dont get it, but i guess its cute if you have someone.

Just guys cmon, you dont have to rubb it in our faces. Like when a single person walks past a couple, they just have to start making out dont though! like cmon!

anyways thats my vent, & my weekend was good. next week shall be good too, brother bears 18th! :)

parts

a small part of me has never let you go, a small part of me is missing you, a small part of me wish's that everything could go back to how things were. But those parts of me are just small, for what you did a large part of me cringes at the thought of you. Confusion is getting the better of me.

The news

I was going to leave and you now possibly could be. You saw me breakdown in that motel room, first hand you heard what i said. Now with this it hurts so much. Even though im moving after year 12, it just sucks cause you'll be on the other side of the country. You mean everything to me without a doubt. I love you babe and please stay for as long as you can.

I'm over it.

I'm not going to wait around for you no more, i'm done and im moving on. You clearly cant make up your mind and im an impatient person, i admit that. So we be friends and thats all for now, goodbye something that could of been great.

You

make me happy.
when i see your face; you make me happy
when you wait for me; you make me happy
when you say your stupid words; you make me happy
when you hang out with me; you make me happy
everyday; you make me happy

tomorrow is my last day of holidays, back to routine, back to school i go, hopefully its gunna be a good year.

lyrics

While our bloods still young.It's so young, it runs. Won't stop til it's over.Won't stop to surrender.


The Temper Trap <3

round.

you make me happy everytime you come around, everytime i see that face of yours smiling at me, mine does too.

Future

Right now im sitting secure with what im going to do, just need an OP 12 or less to begin that new chapter. But for now im fastly approaching the newest chapter of my life, of 'Year 12' oh god what a year it's gunna be.

Right now, im loving it all, i love waking up in the morning and feelin' alive. It's amazing, really is.

You say

that im the one who has changed and you go and do that, haha you make me laugh.

You say

that im the one who has changed and you go and do that, haha you make me laugh.

8:11

I sit here in my brothers room with the only thing on my mind is you. I just don't understand why your not accepting the new person that i've become. Maybe i do things do things differently and we may not see one another as much as before. But i love you, your an amazing person, you deserve the best and you deserve a better best friend. Lately we don't tell each other as much, i was scared to tell you that i diced you for new years, i felt my entire heart sink when i realised what i had done. It's just when your not happy and your not agreeing with everything, well it effects me so much, it makes me sad. I just hope we fix things, things that should not of happened. Please just accept the new me and we can move on. It's now 8.14 and i just wrote how i felt in the moment.

hey

i like it how you think differently to others, how you do shit that noone would ever think of, what you say could be all stupid random crap to others but to me i think it's amazing. your an amazing boyyyyyyyy, your one of a kind mate.

hey

i can't believe i did that, moving on.

i loving it all.

01.01.2010 <333
best fucking new years ever, so out of it but so amazing.
im loving everything about life and the people are making it so much more worth it. im changing my views on it and heck yes they are all positive. im just gunna roll with whatever from now on, hello the new rachel deighton of 2010.

its so crazy evan writing 2010. & wow i made it to year 12. gunna be an intense year, but im gunna enjoy it so much.

xxoo