Fear

Deep down i fear the future, bloody terrified of it. I like the security of school, cause for the past 11 years its been my life, 5 days a week 9am-3pm. But once its over you encounter many problems. One slip up and a possibility that you could be saying farewell to your career, friends or family. I also fear to once i leave Cairns i'll be alone, im going on a different path to all of my friends, joining the defence force is the different path for I. Ill just have myself fighting for survival in this dog eat dog world. That how I see it. But hopefully Ill be okay, you never know the dream that shanice & i have of living in a cute place with a red kitchen may come true or I could be transfered to a uni that contains people i know.... Ive got plenty of time till I leave school. Im gunna enjoy what i have and try to forget about the future, and live in the moment I have now.


Kids, Don't forget to eat your greens.

- may give blogging a rest, am i going to overboard with the posts? I may just be enthusiastic.

Kids.

We may represent the term 'fools' but i love this girl, the one who i can depend on, the one who is there for me, the one who makes me extremely happy, the one who understands my quirkiness, the one is Shanice Robson. Thankyou for everything!

School isn't always about the education!

Friends. Gotta love them :)

The Mind

It has always facinated me to how the human mind forms logic and controls you. Its such a powerful aspect to who you are. My mind right now is constantly memorising massive equations and revolution facts cause yes its getting down to the business end of the term...exams.But lucky for me Im the type of person who knuckles down into the revision, it annoys me when I see students wasting their time in class, why evan bother being there...

Another point ill like to make about the mind is how it makes a person so judgemental. Do people just judge others to provide self satisfaction, I believe so. We all know that nobody is perfect but please people keep your thoughts to yourself, just one word can drag a persons self confidence down massivly, Its happen to me and its not the greatest feeling in the world.

My final point about my mind is that its not allowing me to forget this one person. He is glued there and not moving! But its nice to think about him from time to time, gives me a break from the rush of life for now.

anyways, stay true to your beliefs.
i do, but other don't believe in me.......

a new chapter?

In life I always seem to repeating myself, always including myself in the same events and routine. I guess people like routine, well i surely do. But as of latley i've differed. Ive preferred doing out of the normal things. For instance I joined a gym, i would of never seen it comming, but yes im lifting weights and running on a treadmill...imagine that. I've always shopped in the same store frightened to what ill look like in other stores items, but my outlook on that has changed, maybe due to my change in image, im starting to feel comfortable in the body ive formed, which is a great feeling. But yeah as im getting older im realising it isnt always about being the same or following crowds its about stepping outside of the box and finding who you truely are, yes im only young and ive got plenty of time, but its amazing finding out your reason to why your here. :)

okay im new to blogging, i hope it helps with me to release my feelings/thoughts. well as of what you just read it already is helping. I'll also like to thank dylan for making me do this :). He too has a blog, way better than anything i can do thats when he's not lazy!, so here http://golbnalyd.blogspot.com/, - take a squizz at that.

enjoy yourself. stay tuned. :)