Today

I woke up with a smile across my face, knowing that Jaida will be with me all day long. That girl, is one amazing, strong child. She's come along way and shes helped me to believe that when life gets tough, theres always light at the end of the tunnel.




I wish i was going groovin the moo well only to see muscles live set!!!!!!

freaky

People should think before they say, or should see who is around them before they open their mouth and say something which shouldnt be repeated loudly! arrggghhhh!

but that was my day just thinking if that person heard something, but if so talk to me about it okay cause errr its just her thinking it. okay okay.

well jaida is here tomorrow, the one who makes me happy all the time. yayss

xoxo

Friends, we all need them.

The best of friends,
can change a frown,
into a smile,
when you feel down.

The best of friends,
will understand,
your little trials,
and lend a hand.

The best of friends,
will always share,
your secret dreams,
because they care.

The best of friends,
are worth more than gold,
give all the love,
a heart can hold.


SHANICE! my dearest, i love you and your so amazing.

Letting go.

I really hope you read this, i hope you feel like I do. Im really over thinking of this but i miss the way that our lives use to be together. You know this is about you and i hope it hurts you like it has to write this.

I know the old you but im uninterested in the new you. Maybe the people you've met since 2006 have changed you. Don't get me wrong but they are really nice people the ones ive met but you, you have changed in my sight. Maybe i have to, well i know i have, but at least I try and talk to you, whenever i try and plan something, does it end up happening, no it doesnt. Its simply come down to that two ex best friends don't have the time for one another, well not like how we use to. Bloody every weekend it would be us two kids, chilling having fun. Telling each other everything, having heaps of fun laughing our heads off. Now thats over, we've grown older, hardly a laugh breaks between us and that hurts me a lot.

I knew you when you would never tie your hair up, when wearing dresses would freak you out, when boys didnt matter to you, when you said you would hardly go out and drink, when you said that nothing will come between us. Well now i think they were all lies, just filthy lies.

I really miss you and im glad ive said that, ive just kept in down for the past four years, its low of me to post it on a blog, but im a girl who is just missing a girl who knows me so much more than anyone else on this planet, well you basically knew the old me, the old fat me. You know that last sentence I said was the truth.

But life now has been great, im becomming someone who i actually want to be. What we had was really amazing, but i can tell you now in the past 4 year we havent had a great moment to what we had prior to those years. I really hope you do good in your life but all i can say is what we had is now history for us and to me it can't me repeated, not now or ever.



im sorry.

The Return

The return of routine. It has come back and ive changed it abit but I don't recon it will last for long. School has returned for another term and already been hit with a few essays, but its about subjects Ive been interested in for as long as I can remember, so im gunna enjoy writing them. Also got my marks back from the previous terms exams, i actually passed them all, which makes me feel real good about my self. All those hours that went forever all paid off.

Had a recent conversation about trying to impress people, I just be myself and if people don't get along then why do I bother, im not gunna try to be something that im not. Get use to me cause im loving who i am.


the gym is the best.

truths

from now on its just gunna be the truth......

i like you.


its funny how i can say it here but when it comes down to face to face, i cant. Just can't obtain the confidence, thats all.

xoxo, rachel

you think you know me.

okay well people think they know everything about you, well question them, see if they do.
im making a quizz :) lets see if you can answer them, if you can answer a few or all of them then your real special.

1. Who do i miss the most?
2. Where did i live as i grew up?
3. Whats something important that i don't know what to do?
4. Whats my favourite book?
5. Whats my favourite movie?
6. What bone have i broken?
7. Whats my favourite colour?
8. Where is my dream location in the world?
9. What do i wanna be when im older?

Just a few everyday questions you know. good luck. comment the answer or msn. whatevs.....

feelings

Don't we all just one day want to have a security to that some other human being loves you and you actually can feel it. Like the saying goes that for every minute that clock is ticking someone out there is thinking of you in the more than a friend stage. But what if that isn't true, its just hard to believe with over 6 billion people present that someone would be thinking of me. More freaks me out i guess cause noone ever does. ha i just dont get love situations sometimes. But ahh wouldnt all us single people just thrive of if a partner stared deeply into your eyes, grasped your fingertips and said those three words ' I love you ' and actually meant it......everyone dreams to have that moment happen to them and hopefully that dream becomes a reality.

Believe is all i can say, just believe.

confidence out burst.

Im gunna make this short and sweet for me. I love life and myself. Im gunna be strong to what life makes me encounter. I'll achieve my goals and make other peoples lifes worth living again. Im gunna do great things in life and accomplish pure hapiness, someday.




Ruddy disapoints me when he gets cranky at the flight attendant.

This would be good.

To live on an Island. The lifestyle would be so laidback, mum tells me of her stories of when she lived on the Islands in the Whitsundays and they seem so amazing, Green Island is also where my rents met, cute ay. Living on an island would make me feel like nothing else is out there like you don't have to worry about the dramas on the mainland. I would love it so much, maybe in my gap year i may go work over there taking all the tourist around, showing off our beautiful piece of ocean we have. Green Island is nice, but sadly the coral is disapearing, you have to swim so far out to evan get a glimpse of a fish and they are bloody massive! But so far for Cairns Great Barrier Reef, micealus cay tops it off. I can't spell it sorry.

watch the mighty boosh, you'll love it.

i like

1. Feeling good about myself.
2. Positive Thoughts
3. My curly hair, for once :)
4. Having an amazing family who are always there for me
5. A brother who turned from being such a meanie to be a really caring fella.
6. Friends, who i can tell everything too and they listen, also i can be my complete self around and they won't judge
7. shoes, but more sketches of them.
8. comics, i know im young but they actually make you feel it.
9. music, just sittting back listening to it makes me relax
10. breakfast. i recon the best food is at breakkie time, so many good options.
11. my cork board, all such good memories displayed infront of me.
12. lucky last MY LIFE! it holds so much positive energy, im so proud of how far ive come in my life, im so grateful and thankful.


be happy.

shades

Today I had a chilling day with mum, got some yellow nail polish, cause yellow is my favourite colour, its very delightfull. Im also gunna invest in some ray bans or whatever those sunnies are called, they are just fricken sweet, just not sure if i should get a white or black pair, sorta going towards black, goes with more things. Today I put up my cork board and im putting up memories of the past and hopefully events in the near future will be put up there too. Holidays are going nicely so far, nearly done season 5 of one tree hill, just got 4 eps to go.

If your going out tonight, stay safe and dont be a hooligan.

Im done

Im done trying to impress you, im done playing your game. Whatever you want from me its no more. I want to be my own person and im sick of following you. I like who I am but your just trying to change that. I've come a long way in the past 16 years, changed in a good way, im not gunna let you suck me into have no confidence. I may lack in it but I don't allow it to get the better of me, im brighter than that. I really am. Im done.

love my life

i know i know, two posts in the one day. call it ocd or something just im just letting you know the good news i hold. well its good news for I!
I just went to a quick trip to raintrees thinking we were just getting some you know usual groceries and then out of the blue dad buys me season 5 of one tree hill and season two of mighty boosh! Ahhhhhhhh im so happy, really thankful of my dad! I also got a cork board :), gunna chuck a few photos on it :)! yeeeewwwww best fricken thursday ive had in ages. Nothing will wipe this smile off my face, just don't.

anyways kids im gunna go watch old greggggggiieee boy drink some baileys from a shoe :)

im also excited for four reasons.
1. Holidays
2. I see my uncle in two weeks ( its been 5 years! )
3. I meet my cousin for the first time in two weeks
4. My sister and my neice visit at the end of the month.

i love the month april so far!

The Stress from me.

Is gone, finally. The 5 exams in three days is over. Such a good feeling. Now it's holidays, something ive been waiting for. Just gotta fill in the days with interesting things, might start a reading a new book, any good ones? Oh yes gotta buy season 5 of one tree hill if any stores have it!

But with term 1 complete and hopefully I passed, I want a change in Term 2. I dont know what it is, maybe i should relax a bit and not freak out. In term 1 the thing i did differently was talk to more people, which has lead me to gain more friends which is always nice :). But yea a change would be nice.

Today im happy, very happy. This rain is nice, i just wanna lay in it and feel it gently purse my skin. yeah yeah yeah yeah!

yeeewww brother comes home today.

if you wanna do something in the holidays, feel free to ask. im hardly working which is a relief.

My week holds plenty of

EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS!
actually im quite keen for them, ive spent bloody how many hours studying for them, drank litres of coffee, so i hope i get a good grade.
Had part one of my math exam today, totally kicked arse in it. So now ive only got 3 exams to go in the next 48 hours. Yeewwww i got a B+ on english. stoked.

I like sunsets. Would like to travel one day for a main reason to just see sunsets and preety scenery.

mate, your amazing :)

Why

Im allowing negativity get to me. Honestly I dont get life. I really dont. I just wanna hide again, fade from existance. Im freaking over minor things, i really need something different. I need a break, fishing trip is needed.

The Festival Song - Pez. - for some reason this song makes me forget about the stress.

a2 = b2 + c2 - 2bc COS A
or
Cos A = b2 + c2 - a2
divided by
2bc
or
y-y1=m(x-x1)
:)

sorry my brain is being over powered by maths and facts about the french/american revolution and the German/Italian Unification. F you Prussia for trying to conquer Italy. why bother, you weaklings.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I absolutly hate it when im accused of an action that i didnt do. It frustrates and annoys me, that evan though i know im in the right, i get accused for doing a wrong act. But you see i didnt do it. It there any harm in helping someone. This world needs more people who cares about others. Its what i do and im getting the blame for it all. I put in all the effort all those hours to gain a mark that im certainly proud of, now its possibly getting taken away from me. Urgh people of this world dont care, they dont evan allow me to have my say in all of this.
Is this how Elizabeth Proctor felt when Abigail accused her of witchery?
I feel like noone believes me and ive lost trust now, but i know im in the right so i shouldn't let it get to me.But i always let things get to me, im a constant worrier ( is that evan a word ). Im glad i have soccer tonight, it will allow me to use my frustration on the ball and the target would probably be some innocent persons face, but it would provide me with some satisfaction. Anyways I really need to spend time thinking about other things. So please in the holidays will you do something with me so i dont spend all day getting up myself for something i didnt do!

anyways life is a constant study sesh right now. First priority is Maths followed by Biology and Modern History. All the other subjects ive done the exams.But on Wednesday at 3.00pm it would all be over for what a week? oh well the stress will be gone for a while.

have a nice weekend, your a lucky kid if you dont have to study.