Letting go.

I really hope you read this, i hope you feel like I do. Im really over thinking of this but i miss the way that our lives use to be together. You know this is about you and i hope it hurts you like it has to write this.

I know the old you but im uninterested in the new you. Maybe the people you've met since 2006 have changed you. Don't get me wrong but they are really nice people the ones ive met but you, you have changed in my sight. Maybe i have to, well i know i have, but at least I try and talk to you, whenever i try and plan something, does it end up happening, no it doesnt. Its simply come down to that two ex best friends don't have the time for one another, well not like how we use to. Bloody every weekend it would be us two kids, chilling having fun. Telling each other everything, having heaps of fun laughing our heads off. Now thats over, we've grown older, hardly a laugh breaks between us and that hurts me a lot.

I knew you when you would never tie your hair up, when wearing dresses would freak you out, when boys didnt matter to you, when you said you would hardly go out and drink, when you said that nothing will come between us. Well now i think they were all lies, just filthy lies.

I really miss you and im glad ive said that, ive just kept in down for the past four years, its low of me to post it on a blog, but im a girl who is just missing a girl who knows me so much more than anyone else on this planet, well you basically knew the old me, the old fat me. You know that last sentence I said was the truth.

But life now has been great, im becomming someone who i actually want to be. What we had was really amazing, but i can tell you now in the past 4 year we havent had a great moment to what we had prior to those years. I really hope you do good in your life but all i can say is what we had is now history for us and to me it can't me repeated, not now or ever.



im sorry.