Seriously

why am i addicted to you, ever since you entered - my life has been altered, yes you have made times much more better for me, you make my problems gently sway off into the distance but once your gone, everything comes back to me. Everything i hide away for those moments just hit me again. I want you to be around me, once a week or a fortnight will do. your just always on my mind, & its hard for you to go away.

It's up to me to make a change, choose what is flippen' right for me. But i dont think i can do that, at the moment ive given up on most things, digging myself into a hole that i would gladly love to stay in, i like who i am just all the judging and opinions is getting to me.

possibly my new attitude should be 'i dont give a fuck no more'

''do what you do best and fuck the rest'' - Little Miss Sunshine

now i think to myself, 'what do i do best'
another few inches ive dug myself in the hole of no return..

I'm just

really disapointed in myself at this moment. I'll get over it, but why did i do that. Lately i miss my old self, but it's up to me to make myself a better person; a person who i would actually like.

holidays

lovely, lovely, lovely
all i can say, & life's good.